The day I learned reality

sent in by Dennis

I guess you can say I am an ex-Christian. I used to believe all that crapola like jesus loves you and so on. But then one day I discovered all this religious crap is a load of bull. If God/Jesus/Allah/Great Zabbadabba or whatever we're calling him this week really gave a crap about us why is there so much suffering in the world? Don't give me that line of crap about free will and all that. If God gave a rat's ass about people he'd get off his ass and prevent shit like September 11th himself.

What else served to finally wake me up to the bullshit Christianity really is, Is when my mom who was a Christian all her life died of cancer at the age of 52. She was a very good human being and actually cared about her neighbors,family,friends etc. unlike some jackass actor, musician,or athlete who's only concern is what color Beemer to buy this week.

I got really tired of watching football games and listening to some brain dead jock prattle on and on about how God wanted him to win that game and they got a miracle all the while my mother lied sick in her hospital bed. I know perfectly well I'm not the only one in the world that has happened to which is what makes it all the more depressing. If God cared about us and wanted to help us. wouldn't he be more concerned with helping doctors find cures for cancer, AIDS,etc. than helping some imbicile run a ball all the way to the opposite end of a field?

I remember when I was in a youth group for about a week some guy was telling me why God sometimes doesn't answer your prayers is because he doesn't beleive it's what's right for you. What my mom being dead is good for us? Having to pay a buttload of medical bills and hoping her life insurance will pay off is right for us? Being unemployed is good too huh?

It also seems to me there's just too much of a club mentality about religion. Every religion tries to tell you why there way of life is better than the other religion and how you're going to hell if you don't join there church/cult.

All this shit combined finally sank into my head and I finally realized that maybe why God doesn't answer your prayers or help you when you're in trouble is because God doesn't exist.

City: a boring redneck shithole where cows are more common than teeth or brains
State: PA
How old were you when you became a christian? born into it
How old were you when you ceased being a christian? 26
What churches or organizations or labels have applied to you? I never really went to church but we still considered ourselves christian
What labels, if any, would you apply to yourself now? Non-religious
Why did you become a christian? As I said I was born into it
Why did you de-convert? Because one day reality finally sunk into my head.