sent in by anonymous
I remember the day that I asked Jesus to come into my heart. I was walking back from mass on a Wednesday afternoon (I went to the local catholic school) and I must have been around 6 or so. I prayed with all my might, clutching my little worn bible to my chest, opened my heart, and . . . nothing. I remember my distinct feeling of disappointment that nothing "magical" had happened: no miracles, no rush of feeling, no mystical voices or light. And that was the beginning of the end for me. I would ask half-heartedly if I could get baptised and be confirmed, and my mother strictly forbade it. Just wait until you know for sure, she would tell me, wait until you understand a little more about what you are asking.
To say she was right would be a vast understatement. To say I struggled with the tenants of the Xian faith would be putting it very mildly. I wanted to know why sex outside of marraige was frowned upon even if two people loved each other, while sex in a loveless marriage was considered sanctified. I wanted to know why this faith differed so from that of the Jewish faith (for instance, the creation of that oh so mythological place called hell, which is never mentioned in the old testament) and why it seemed that every major holiday was simply borrowed from earlier ancient pagan practices.
I then dug as deep and far as I could go and every avenue unveiled another lie, another untruth, another hypocrisy, and more and more destruction, murder, and the obliteration of all things opposed to it.
It is estimated that 9 million women and children were tortured, mutilated, burned at the stake, and slayed during the burning times, the inquistion, and the witch trials. Not to mention 200,000 Jews and Muslims slaughtered in the crusades as Xians pillaged, burned, and raped in their war against the "infidels". Their slogan was "Christ-killers! Embrace the cross or die!"
I know: it's horrifying. And do we learn any of this while in school? Of course not. Do we learn that all the so-called "demons" of Xianity are actually the old pagan gods and goddesses of antiquity, and that the cultures that worshipped them were matriarchal, peace-loving, and earth respecting? I came across sources of hymns, invocations, and psalms to the Goddess that were more than mere echoes of the biblical psalms. These were far older, by thousands of years. The writers of the bible had lifted things nearly word for word from pagan sources.
There's one thing I learned: Xians certainly aren't very creative. They took a religion that was nature-based, gentle, free, and passionate and made it into an old dead husk, where the followers are instilled with fear and shame, the children are violated by the church leaders, and everyone is kept in ignorance. Everything else is destroyed or burned. The more I learned the more it sickened me.
But don't take my word on it. I'll leave you with a couple quotes, from respected leaders and philosophers of the past:
"My earlier views of the unsoundness of the Christian scheme of salvation and the human origin of the scriptures has become clearer and stronger with advancing years."
"What are the fruits of Christianity? Bigotry, superstition, and persecution." -President James Madison
"For seventeen hundred years the Christian sect has done nothing but harm." -Voltaire
"I do not find in Christianity one redeeming feature."
"Away, then, with the Christian theology! Away with a god invented by preachers of the bloody faith, who, without their important nothing, by means of which they explain everything, could no longer revel in superfluity; no longer glorify poverty and live in luxury themselves; no longer preach submission and practice arrogance; but who would, through the march of reason, be hurled into the deepest depths of oblivion."
- Johann Most, The God Pestilence
City: Santa Monica